Lesa MRK - Caleb: A Mother’s Heartfelt Love ❤️

Dearest Caleb, <br /> <br />Hi. I am your mommy. <br />I loved you SO much... <br />It hurt me so much, <br />When I lost you. <br />You were with me 13.5 weeks, <br />And during that time, <br />I dreamed incredible plans for us. <br />Now all my sweet dreams are gone, <br />Cause you are gone. <br /> <br />Now you will remain, <br />Just a tiny baby forever, <br />In my mind's image, <br />For you will never grow <br />As other children do. <br /> <br />I love you so much, Caleb... <br />I ache from missing you. <br />I wanted to hold you, <br />And love you and show you, <br />All the beautiful things in this world. <br />I wanted a chance to love you, <br />To laugh with you, to hold your tiny hand. <br /> <br />I've cried so many tears over losing you, <br />For you meant the world to me <br />And I needed you so much. <br />Again, I will have no baby to love, <br />When I thought that I would. <br />I believed it so strongly, <br />But all my ideals were shattered, <br />And since that day, <br />I have not been the same. <br /> <br />There is this aching void inside of me, <br />And my heart is crying out: : : <br />'I miss you, Caleb! <br />Why did you have to go? <br />Why did you leave me, <br />When I loved you so very much? <br />And why does it all have to end? ! ' <br /> <br />I do not know the answers, <br />But I do know that you had no choice. <br />You had to die, <br />But I can make no sense of your death. <br />You were such such a special baby, <br />And I would have been a good mommy to you. <br /> <br />Caleb, I want you to know I will ALWAYS love you, <br />Forever I will carry you in my heart, <br />As I was unable to continue carrying you in my body... <br />And in my heart there will always be, <br />A tiny image of a baby boy, <br />My precious son.... <br />A special part of me, always... <br /> <br />Goodbye, my baby boy. <br /> <br />(January 19,1998)<br /><br />Lesa MRK<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/caleb/